i had expected more out of today's public holiday. i thought we could go out and shop or walk around. now, i am as bored as ever. i want to escape from my books for a while.cant you just understand it? i am facing the 4 walls all the time. not that i am being clever or anything, you should really make use of the time all of us are together. maybe what she said was right, i should just stay away from where you are. i should live in my own world of friends, homework,etc. excluding you.i should follow what everyone does, ignore, walk out.
everytime you talk to me, its either about school work or school, or something else that happens to be the problem with me. everytime i want to start a conversation, you have already turned a deaf ear to my words.
i know he is stress.but everytime they do something wrong, he flares up.you rub it in.RUB IT IN. i just want a nice quiet time with everybody.arguments are no use.
you shower attention on ppl who need, but not to me. i seem just there, the perfect one, just waiting for me to rebel against you, cos my teenage years rebellion against parents thing has not started yet.
next time i should just make my own plans without you, dont ever go out with you. you make me feel horrible. want me to feel like part of what you are. its just a simple remedy.
I JUST NEED YOUR ATTENTION. what more could i ask for from your 'busy' schedule?
--i have nothing more to say of you.
Friday, April 14, 2006;
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